Worlds blurred and seas risen
Suddenly I am in prison;
Fog the eyes and blur the senses
Making strong-held inferences.
Fears at the forefront
Reason at the back
Surely I must confront
How it is it that I attack
This pain. So fresh so raw
How do I hold space for all
This mess. So ugly and new
My whole life it suddenly undo-es.
Fear or pain, it’s all the same
Rounding corners, making shame
Take it down, douse it in flames
Burn it all, the eternal pain
Of failure, not enough,
In this world I simply stuff
It all down. Hiding out
Makings fears shout
The truth to my scattered
Brain, always the matter,
Never sane. Now you I must meet
Where honesty and life complete
Each other’s questions.
Making very strong suggestions.
Truth is known. And that’s a fact.
To seek it out, I make this pact.
I will keep you safe, I will keep me calm.
You are all my goal; no qualm
Will dissuade me from my charge
Of making safety by in large
The goal. Associate this.
Safety with bodily comfort is
Protection, a strong held buffer
From physical sensations she shouldn’t suffer.
Cut it out, let it mend
It’s ok if it dies again.
Life cannot hold this pain
Without a heavier, deeper strain.